There is a saying in the lapband world that the band can curb hunger, but not head hunger. For an emotional eater, such as myself, this could be the kiss of death for a successful weight loss. So, in addition to learning how to eat better, slower, smaller portions and chewing to mush...I am also having to learn to ignore the head hunger cravings...
I am slowly winning the actual hunger battle. It's not perfect yet. I forget about the band and take a bite bigger thn I should...or eat too fast...or don't chew we'll enough...in fact it happened this morning when I had a piece of peanut butter toast stick firmly until I was able to choke it up.
But, I'm eating much less and exercising more...and as we all know...those two things are what creates an environment of weight loss.
I am not winning the other battle. In fact, I am losing the head hunger battle in a spectacular fashion. If i walk past candy...I eat it. At night I crave carbs and give in. It's not true hunger...it's bad habits and years of conditioning to soothe my emotions with food. I miss my deployed husband. We are working to keep our relationship together which is a huge source of anxiety. I get stressed being the only responsible person for two small babies. I am working part time on top of everything else... And all those emotions want food...actually...they want processed carbs and sugar. And I'm giving in.
Sabotage. It's the same old story that I tell with every diet. I start off strong then sanotage my good work. Only this time it has to be different. It's not an option to fail at this.
I started tonight. I put the kids in bed and immediately I found myself in the kitchen wandering and looking for something to snack on. Good thing I had prepared...there is nothing to eat that's not good for me food. So...I had a slice of cheese and a sugar free Popsicle.
And I've upped my bedtime...if I'm sleeping I'm not eating.
I've now kicked my butt and now I'm off to bed.